Allah knows,,,

 When you feel all alone in this world
And there’s nobody to count your tears
Just remember no matter where you are
Allah knows, Allah knows.

Salam alaik to all my beloved friends... today i wanna make this post in other language... thinking that it will make me happier, testing my grammar .....  today i wanna share a few things, a few experience... but first of all i wanna ask for their forgiveness,,,who r they? they are those whom i worth so much..my parents.... my friends, my sisters, my brothers and all acquaintances that i've met.... sorry for every bad words, action etc.... do pray for me to be strong enough  to run through all these tests...


Bismillah,,

There's a day when i was supposed to attend a function at an academy.... well at first i was too lazy to go there as my tutorial was not completed yet... however, thinking that my absence will dissapoints my seniors and the loss of knowledge,, i've made my decision to go there.... eventhough my roomate wouldn't go there...i still wanna go there... i've made my mind... soon after asr pray,, i found my usrah sis,,Uda ... i had told her that i wanna join her, walking together to the academy... she says insyaAllah , if she didn't forget... ...

It was 6 pm in the evening .... suddenly Uda sent me a message..wanted  to see me and some other friends... i replied to her saying that i wanna take a shower... and we'll meet at the academy during the function ... i was late at that time,,, thinking that Uda might have gone there , i texted my friend... my friend called me ....  and i ask her for a help to buy some food for me... we also promised to walk together... It was also  my fault that i was too late... thus i called her, asking her location... she says she had walked far from our college residence, dont know why, but she sounds angry... i realised that its my own fault... at that time , i was alone...walking in the dark dusk... all feelings were gathering inside me..scared.worried. sad. dissapointed. hope. despair etc..imy heart whispering.."YA ALLAH DO PROTECT ME ". i keep on walking and walking .......


In the middle of those feeling,,i called her again,, asking for her location,,, she was nearly reached towards the academy.. i asked her to wait up for me...since i was walking alone... but maybe she seems can't hear me... so she told me to keep walking,, she'll wait for me at the academy.... i was about to burst into tears...

See we all have a path to choose
Through the valleys and hills we go
With the ups and the downs never fret never frown
Allah knows, Allah knows.

While i was walking alone,,, suddenly a motorcyclist stops near me.. i was so shocked... but my heart was so relieved , knowing that she is my senior... she offers me a ride... Alhamdulillah... He knows...

she asked me upon seeing me walking alone... i was about to burst into tears at that time, swiftly hold my breath.. replying that my friends are just near in front of me.... thus i ride the motorcycle and passes through my friends... i couldn't even turned my face towards them,,thinking that they might be angry with me...leaving them behind... [credits to sis anis who'll get married...may Allah bless your marriage always......]

 When you’re carrying a monster load
And you wonder how far you can go
With every step on that road you take
Allah knows, Allah knows.

So i reached the academy earlier than them... as they arrived... they said..how could i left them walking while i had promised to walk with them... Allah knows more.... all i could do was just keep smiling eventhough my heart was crying badly...  they know nothing... they are innocent...

 When you lose someone close to your heart
See your whole world fall apart
And you try to go on but it seems so hard
Allah knows, Allah knows.

Don't know why...i keep crying and my heart was tornt into pieces... maybe its because i love them very much....... and i couldn't stand being alone... as i am a girl...  my twin had once said... humans couldn't always be by our side..there's a time when we'll be alone... so at that time all we could do is just hoping, praying to Allah...

My dear friends,,

on that day i've realized that wherever we are, we are His servant...He knows everything about us.everything in our hearts, everything that we felt...... so it is a must to us to always keep depending on Allah no matter where we are,,, all the times....

There's nothing else that i wanna ask from you, my readers.... do keep it a secret as this blog is my life note,,my diary of life...just take its treshold value.... a value of other's story to be applied in our life... can you??? I wish you would...

thanks for reading...... i really appreciated that....
Wassalam